kiddo-thing.

do i look like a kiddo? 7yrs old maybe?
i wonder why they have to treat me like this.
for gods sake,im already 19 this year and they still control me like a small child.
i just want to meet my friends.hang out with them--yet they still wont allow me.
i wonder until when they will treat me like this? bcoz i dont think i can handle this anymore.

arggghhh!!!!!! i need to smoke!!

serabut.

Argghhhh. I just dont know how to start. Lately my life have been miserable as hell.
It feels like i've lost my faith in humanity..haha. Btw,i miss all of friends,esp. my ponda family-
Everyday aku bangun tido,online smpi 8-9 jam, makan, pastu tido balik. Even kat hostel pon
aku xteruk camni.rase cm xde lifeless gilebabi. goddamnit laa,i need to reschedule my life back.
aku rase cm nak gi carik keje bsok.dpd aku bsidai kat umah cm loser,lg baik aku gy bwt something.
But the best part about staying at home is i can download as many albums that i want+expanding my whatever-core music collection.haha dah 32 gb lagu aku.sumpah cara aku describe idup aku cm org xde lifekan?. wtv la,who cares anyway.as long aku rase cm idop sudah.aku rase cm storytelling je kt blog aku ni.ciao

p/s : aku rase cm nak gay dgn lead vocalist alexisonfire/city and colour.suara dia sumpah sedap ouh.gy download album city and colour-bring me your love.sumpah x rugi. :)

d.o.u.b.t

Is it wrong for me to have doubts? I am only human.

I doubt myself.

I doubt that I can accomplish all that I want to achieve.

I doubt my talents.

I doubt that I have the potential that others say I do.

I doubt that my future holds the prospect of me reaching my dreams.

I doubt others.

I doubt that some people really care as much as they say they do.

I doubt their honesty with me.

I doubt their trust in me.

I doubt my willingness to believe in them.

I doubt that they really find me that special.

Doubt, is there ever a way to find reassurance?

me.me.me

im ridhwan.

19 years old by the end of this march.
currently studying at kolej duit utama.
m.u.s.i.c lover.esp. hardcore, metal stuffs.
i collect n steal lotss of music
i love to sleep.well, everyone does.
crapping is good. i do it everyday.
i just cant live without cigarette.i smoke alot.
i tried to stop lotssss of timesss
im a complicated person and i love being one :)
i just spoiled my lovely+fully modded k530i.shit
i love to customize everything esp my lappy.
lazy to study+love to waste time.
im fuckin addicted to pool.im not the 8ball pusssyy
i ruined my life once n i dont want to repeat the same thing again.
i hate gay.they always wanted to ruin other guy's lives.
im not a good person n always treat others badly.
but you don't know me yet,so you don't fuckin judge me.
thank u for reading n wasting ur time.

the best is yet to come.